Yeah I don't know what my problem is, why I can't stick to it even though I feel absolutely horrible about myself. Trying to tell myself all I can do is go from here, it's doable, and I'll feel better in a few days despite what the scale might say, and I'll lose the rest at school. Whatever. Gonna start writing everything down now, here. 149 today (14 to go), no food, thirty minute run treadmill, 300cals burned.